but now they're tired, don't wanna think no more

partly for l e-c and partly for me:

"I wanted her to see that the only life worth living is a life full of love; that loss is always part of the equation; that love and loss conjoined are the best opportunity we get to live fully, to be our strongest, our most compassionate, our most graceful selves. "
-pam houston

cantwell bluegrass this weekend. friday: sharing whiskey in the mud and asparagus omelettes in the morning around julia's table, with headaches and conversations starting with "do you know that you ____ last night?" followed by laughter and groans. saturday: recovery, work, learning, again, that just because it's the truth doesn't mean it's welcome. crawled into desneige's sleeping bag next to anne at 5 am mumbling something about distractions and dreamt about imaginary birds. i never claimed to be able to make decisions. but i think i could learn.